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Heart of a Pharisee or a sinner?

While reading and re-reading Luke chapter 7 the past weeks, I am overwhelmed by so many facets of Christ that merely 50 verses bring to my mind and heart.  I have been particularly drawn to the experience in the house of one of the Pharisees.

Scripture says that “one of the Pharisees desired Him that He would eat with Him.” Christ went to the house of the Pharisee and shortly after, a woman in the city – which was a sinner – brought an alabaster box and stood at His feet.  This may be a very familiar exchange, but it never ceases to flood my heart upon reading it.  I close my eyes and I envision this woman, a known sinner, who comes before the King of kings with her meager offering.  She breaks the alabaster box, perhaps reflecting that her heart was broken, and poured it out upon Him.  She wept and washed His feet with those tears, more of her brokenness overflowing upon Him.  He received her brokenness.

Let that sink in. He received her brokenness.  He didn’t send her away.  He didn’t say she wasn’t refined or perfect enough yet.  He received her. Now, let that sink in and wash over you.  He receives you.  He receives you.

However, the Pharisee spoke within himself, “this man, if he were a prophet, would have known who and what manner of woman this is that touches him: for she is a sinner.” This Pharisee could not imagine a man of God that would receive such a broken vessel.

Matthew Henry’s commentary on this happening is as follows:

None can truly perceive how precious Christ is, and the glory of the gospel, except the broken-hearted. But while they feel they cannot enough express self-abhorrence on account of sin, and admiration of his mercy, the self-sufficient will be disgusted, because the gospel encourages such repenting sinners. The Pharisee, instead of rejoicing in the tokens of the woman’s repentance, confined his thoughts to her former bad character. But without free forgiveness none of us can escape the wrath to come; this our gracious Saviour has purchased with his blood, that he may freely bestow it on every one that believes in him…Let us keep far from the proud spirit of the Pharisee, simply depending upon and rejoicing in Christ alone, and so be prepared to obey him more zealously, and more strongly to recommend him unto all around us. The more we express our sorrow for sin, and our love to Christ, the clearer evidence we have of the forgiveness of our sins. What a wonderful change does grace make upon a sinner’s heart and life, as well as upon his state before God, by the full remission of all his sins through faith in the Lord Jesus!”

A deep question has permeated me::do you have a heart like this Pharisee or a heart like this “sinful woman”?  Do you have a heart that is too proud to acknowledge your origin and your need for Christ?  Or, do you have a heart that will pour out all to Him, beckoning the only One that can receive your brokenness and your whole?

Let Him say of me, “her sins, which were many, are forgiven; for she loved much.”

Be blessed,



I love Your Presence

My song for the day.



I surrender all

Today, I am attempting to accomplish something that I have always struggled with.  As women, I feel that many times we like to be in control of everything and possibly everyone.  It helps us to feel stable and secure to know that we can orchestrate all things.  However, the truth of the matter is that we cannot.  Only God can have complete control.  So, today Lord I give over all my worries and cares to You.  I give You my strength and weakness, my success and failure, my burdens and joys.  Take all and do all as You will.

I place my heart and life in Your most capable hands,


Faithful Provider

I have been amazed many times in the past year by how the Lord has been working.  One of the main things that I have witnessed Him do time and time again is to provide for my family.  I have come to the realization that He always provides exactly what we need in the hour we need it.  I don’t believe He is merely a provider of what we want, but of what we need.  For instance, last week I knew that we needed an extra $70 to pay a few bills due that Friday.  I was trusting Him to provide this for us.  I also knew that I would most likely make this in tips throughout the week.  BUT, He wanted to show Himself as my provider!  So, on that Monday He provided $72 in tips in just that day!!  He is always wanting to pull our eyes and hearts back to Him.  It would have been easy for me to trust in my clients for good tips that week.  But instead I was trusting Him to provide and He did so in just a 7 hour period!

When there is an issue or need in your heart, take a minute and simply trust Him to overtake that issue.  He is more than capable to handle everything that is worrying you, everything that may be burdensome to you.  Simply put, just trust.

“The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song.” ~Psalm 28:7

May the Holy Spirit reveal to your heart how to trust Him wholeheartedly.


Let no one despise your _________

Today I found myself thinking on a verse found in 1 Timothy 4:12.

It says, “Let no man despise thy youth; but be thou an example of the believers, in word, in conversation, in charity, in spirit, in faith, in purity.”

The reasoning for this meditation today is simple.  Yesterday I decided to “go big or go home” with my newest hair cut decision.  I have been trying to grow out my hair for about a year and I was getting tired of how “trend-less” it was looking.  So, I bit the bullet and had a fellow stylist cut one side of my hair to about an inch long and very textured over my ear, while leaving the rest long.  Gutsy, right?  Well, in so doing I have gotten much feedback.  I found that a lot of people would say, “wow, you are crazy, bold, brave for doing that!”  So, this got me thinking on that verse.  It says, don’t let anyone despise your youth.  What does that really mean?  To me, many people look down on the young for their impulsiveness, their freedom, their carefree spirit.  In doing this drastic and bold cut, I was actually embracing my youthfulness!  I want to be a woman who is free in what the Lord has given me to be.  I want to be free and bold in my actions and bold in my conversation, charity, spirit, faith and purity!  This “revelation” was very eye-opening to me.

Lord, help me to be bold, to be as a youth with my passion and creativity.  Lord, let no one despise my boldness, my passion, my faith, my creativity…my youth!

~ Crystal